I have loved you, and I have hated myself. Everything good, i see in you. Everything bad, it has been in me. I have been destructive to myself, denied myself what is good and given myself over to hell. I do not believe you deserve me because i believe you want better than me ... and so, i hate me. even so, i do not wish to be anyone else, other than me. I am not in self-denial ... i simply have been denying myself of anything good for me. I do not desire any longer to continue hating myself. TEach me how to accept myself, how to be good to myself, how to trust myself. Not for my own sake, but for the sake of the little ones who deserve better from me than the backlash of contempt in which I have been holding myself. Thank you.
